This is a writer’s favorite thing to say. It summarizes all the struggles that we face without showing anyone our fears. Writer have to either be overly emotional or emotionless, sometimes simultaneously. There is so much piled behind such a simple phrase. It feels like the stopper on a bottle that is ready to explode.
Usually, I am pulled into the realm of characters that I lose track of reality, but this year I’ve been pulled into the realm of reality (can I call it a realm?) that I have lost touch with all my characters. When everything in your life is stressful, you can’t focus on the stress of characters.
Every time I open a document, I think what do I have to write for class? It’s unnerving knowing that other people are going to look at and critique your writing. I’m a senior and I still have that feeling. It never really gets easier. Then, we are expected to read every book and stay on top of class while writing and editing. The weirdest struggle is being social and antisocial. It’s a balancing act I have not completely figured out. If I’m social, I don’t write often but I get good content and write more interesting pieces. When I am antisocial, I write more, but the content becomes stagnant.
As a senior, there is so much to do. People look at me and I feel like I just ignore the millions of things that I have to do. Sometimes, I rely a little too much on photography, because it’s easy to see immediately if it’s good or bad. With writing, there is so much more effort and stress. One word could be off, one sentence could deter from the main point, or one idea could be skewed for the reader. When you’re reading so much for class, it becomes tedious to reread your own work ten times to edit it all.
So as I said, writing is hard. But I’m planning on doing more soon, so stay tuned.